Don’t try

December 17, 2005 by Angel Tear
Filed under: Uncategorized

Something I wrote about two weeks ago, and I just found it while scanning in a few pictures, and since I pulled my keyboard out I might as well turn it into a song over christmas.

Don’t try

For some time you’ve been looking at an empty frame,
You want to see the image.
The glass unbreakable, unreal and untrue
remains unshattered by all armed attempts.

Don’t try to reassure,
Don’t try to Re-restore
’Cause we both know that
I’m no longer pure

Behind the glass manipulating,
hide my heart ‘cause it’s still breaking
don’t try to see, listen or feel,
souls like mine aren’t made to be healed.

Don’t try to reassure,
Don’t try to re-restore
’Cause we both know that
I can never be pure.

Forget the past and all that we said
I’m choosing the solitude and hatred instead
An eye for an eye, life for life
you tried to hard to end the strife.

Don’t try to reassure,
don’t try to re-restore
’Cause we both know
that I was never pure.

Return to your heart,
Return to your smile
Without me you’ll be happy,
at least for a while.

The Way of Ninjutsu: Part four

December 16, 2005 by Angel Tear
Filed under: Novels

Monday: 26th Sept

”The past ten days have been the hardest I’ve ever had to live through. Sometimes I wish it would all come to an end.
I’ve had Iruka take all of my weapons, telling him they remind me of the dream. He knows I’m lying, but it’s better to try and recover before giving up completely. I have to find out who is doing this to me, as I am fully aware that Naruto could soon follow. His identity as the carrier of the demon fox is well known, the reason why so many people despise him. For his and Sasukes sake I will carry on.
But life seems so dark now, almost as dark as that room.
Whenever Iruka or the Hokage visits, I have to force myself to tell them I’m fine. But I just couldn’t face worrying them more, I have to keep the secret, I cant tell them that –“

”Tell us what?” demanded the Hokage, slamming his desk hard, he was old, but powerful.
”That’s where is ends, Hokage-Sama. At this point, I would’ve thought he was too tired to carry on writing. But he wasn’t even there, I also would have waited…But…But I noticed something damn obvious”
The leader of the village felt he needn’t say anything as Iruka moved closer, and tossing the diary onto his desk. It slid around ninty degrees, and was still.
With a small splash of blood mingling with the ink.
”Gather all of the Jounin’s and Chounins. And Iruka, bring the three Genins, Uchiha Sasuke, Uzumaki Naruto and Haruno Sakura, the members of group seven”
”Hai!” He bowed low and left slowly, respectfully before breaking out at his terminal velocity to alert everyone.

Talk, suggestions and rumours spread through the crowd in the courtyard as Sasuke moved through to the front. At times going unnoticed, the throng would push him back, but soon he caught sight of Sakura’s light pink hair.
”Sasuke!” Naruto jumped up and waving wildly.
”Over here! Do you know why they called us?” Sakura asked while looking around nervously at the higher authorities shouting instructions.
”No idea, Iruka-Sensei never said” whispered Naruto, everything was getting quieter as the Hokage appeared, they all bowed and watched as he walked by and paced back again, holding his head up to talk to them.

”My friends, it is well known of what has happened to Hatake Kakashi, but I’m afraid the situation just got worse.”
The ninjas tried to converse again but their leader silenced them. The tension was killing Sakura, she knew now that it wasn’t good, from when they went to visit him and there was no sign she had known something was wrong.
”Kakashi-Sensei…”
”I’m very concerned, he has gone missing. More accurately, he has been abducted”
”WHAT?!” Naruto burst out, setting off the others.
”I thought he was sick”
”I thought he was on vacation”
”I didn’t know anything!”
”So what are you going to do about it? No one else is safe, and Kakashi may already be…” Sasuke couldn’t bring himself to finish his own outburst. He wasn’t an optimist at the best of times, in fact he wasn’t much at all, just a presence that people hardly noticed, but couldn’t do without. But the impact he had made was incredible. He hadn’t even intended to cause a silence, his question was the same as everyone else’s. So maybe they were just as curious.
”Hmmmm” grunted the Hokage and positioned himself before the three.
”You three, will do absolutely nothing. I want you to make sure you keep yourselves safe, and don’t bother going to the academy for some time. Leave it all to us for now” He then turned away from the three staring at one another and began to give instructions to the remaining ninjas, to search the perimeter of the town and the forest.

The Way Of Ninjutsu: Part Three

December 11, 2005 by Angel Tear
Filed under: Novels

Kakashi woke with a start and looked around his room frantically. Nobody was there.
The dream, so terrifying. He had dreamt that he’d been held hostage, attacked and nearly beaten to death, and to be honest, he didn’t feel so good now. He recalled the burning slice of the shuriken and Kunai’s, the heavy blows of the enemy.
That man… Who was he? There was something about him so unrealistic and made Kakashi gulp with terror as he tried to control his breathing and his heart nearly failing to keep up with the events.
He smoothed his hair back with his hand, feeling it slick with sweat between his fingers.
Then he opened his eyes after closing them in attempt to shut everything out.
“WAHHHHRRRRGGG!!” He screamed and sat bold upright from his lazy and exhausted slouch. His body was covered in gashes, his bed sheets soaked in crimson blood.
Suddenly he felt dizzy and vulnerable; he’d never experienced anything like it.
“No…I need to see Iruka…But outside? What if they’re there to finish me off?” He gazed out of the window, getting a head rush.
“I’m done for if I stay here. I need to get help” he gasped and pulled his clothes on as realisation hit him so hard he stumbled back onto his bed.
Naruto, Sasuke and Sakura. Were they okay? As they were part of his group, they were in danger too and if anything happened to them because of him, he could never live with himself. He’d already lost too many comrades. Those people were a part of his team back then when he had graduated and become what he was today. The sharingan was a blessing to him, a gift from his friend, a graduating present as he was finally called a Jounin, and it burned as he remembered how the man in his dream had come close to piercing it with a throwing knife. He’d been lucky as he had disappeared so suddenly. The end of the dream was a haze.

“Iruka…Iruka, damn. Wake up!” Kakashi shouted frantically as he pounded on Iruka’s door and after a matter of minutes a sleepy ninja tugged the front door open.
“What is it? I thought the front door was going to come off its hinges the way you banged it…Kakashi?” Iruka stared at his friend and colleague whose skin was nearly as grey as his hair and his eyes looked exhausted.
“You’d better come in”

“What on earth happened to you?!” Iruka gasped as a look of pure shock took over his face. Kakashi didn’t like that look of pure horror and Iruka was usually hard to shock.
“I don’t know, I really don’t remember how I got like this. I was fine when I went to sleep”
“Someone didn’t attack you did they?” Kakashi shook his head which hung low. Both knew he was so alert; also, it wasn’t as though any sane human would sleep soundly while someone hacked away at their body as they slept.
“Then I’m stumped for ideas.”
“Wait! I remember now” Iruka narrowed his eyes. He wasn’t about to tell him that he’d lost to Sasuke in training, was he?
“I had a dream. Though it wasn’t a normal one” Kakashi looked up to Iruka’s face to see if he’d started laughing yet. But instead an expression of deep worry and concern was pasted on every part.
“I was alone, in a shack in some deep dark woods. I spent what seemed like days trying to escape until I just couldn’t do anything more than sit and wait. Then someone arrived - a man wrapped in a dark cloak and robes. His eyes brimming with evil, it made me feel as though all the power within me had been sapped away by that one stare”
“Kakashi I -”
“Hear me out…please.” Iruka reluctantly sat back down and listened.
“He attacked me and I couldn’t do a thing, because I was so petrified, I’ve never felt fear in that way before. Then I awoke at last and my body…my sheets. I had to wait for an hour before coming to find you…in case they were out there” He swallowed a breath that he was midway through releasing, looking into Iruka’s eyes the Jounin rasped
“Someone wants me dead”

“Oh no” Naruto whined as Iruka appeared in the horizon, walking slowly towards them.
“We have him again. When is Kakashi getting back from his vacation? If he even did go on vacation in the first place” Sakura folded her arms across her chest tightly and turned away.
“Nami? What are you on about? Why would Iruka-sensei lie about him not being away?” Sakura’s eyes flashed with an evil joy and grinned.
“Because I went past his place! And in the morning the curtains were shut…well, actually every time they were shut. But this morning they were open” she said, slightly unsure to if Sasuke and Naruto would buy her story. But it was true; she had walked past out of curiosity and worry more than once.
“But let’s try to keep quiet about it…NARUTO! NO!”
“SENSEI?!” the blonde fox like boy was already throwing himself and solid mirror images of himself at Iruka and pinning him to the ground, his arms being pulled behind his back at painful angles.
“What the heck are you doing? Get off!”
“Not until you tell me where Kakashi-sensei is” he clung on, and each copy of himself repeated the exact same question as the original body of Naruto.
After a minute Iruka found a weak point and flung one of the Naruto copies off from his arm and began to rip one after the other from his own form and each one disappeared soon after.
“Naruto? Why did you just attack me?” he panted as he rose from the ground with the three ninjas standing over him.
“He was too hasty and didn’t give you a chance to answer before the latter plan we had” Sasuke murmured as he pulled up Iruka.
“We just want to know where Kakashi-sensei really is. We aren’t convinced that he is where you say” he folded his arms and became silent instantly and gave Iruka his famous blank stare.
“Fine…Fine. I’ll tell you. Sit down first” the three promptly followed his instruction and were seated upon the grass.
“Kakashi was attacked, or so we assume, the other night. But it’s not that simple”
“What do you mean?” Sakura asked eagerly.
“He was attacked in his sleep” the chounin looked bewildered as he said this, hardly believing it himself.
“Say what? I mean… Wouldn’t you know if someone was hacking and slashing you to pieces while you were asleep?”
“That’s exactly what I thought, but when I saw him he was so pale and I almost thought he was some kind of ghost arriving at my door at sunrise”
“This sounds really serious. But is he okay?”
“He’s alive, but he’s not himself in character. He just won’t speak anymore than answers such as ‘yes’ and ‘no’. It’ll be some time until he comes around mentally” Sakura and Naruto stared with their mouths half open as they listened about what had happened to their sensei and teacher. It just didn’t seem real enough.
“Are we able to see him?” Asked Sasuke “Or even more importantly, when will he return as our Sensei?”
Iruka kneaded his forehead after shifting his forehead protector out of the way.
“I can’t say, nothing is certain with him. He just drifts in and out of particular states. One minute he’ll be completely silent, the next he’ll be terrified, overly happy or in tears”
“Tears?” Sakura started, now she was beginning to feel afraid, not just for herself but the rest of Konoha village. She fell back and lay on the grass staring at the sky. Not once had anything like this happened but now that it was it seemed too hard to accept.
“I think you should go home for now, I need to go and see the Hokage to let him know of our situation. But you three are Genins. Please don’t get yourself into trouble, be fully alert and whatever you do…” he let a glance slide over the faces of the three rookie ninjas.
“Don’t go and see Kakashi, it won’t do you any good” He turned and left hastily leaving the three of them to stare at one another in shock and fear.

Naruto was the first to speak after exchanging looks and forming their own opinions as he turned to leave.
”Naruto? Where are you going?” Sakura asked, out of worry that he could possibly disappear or be attacked as Kakashi had.
Naruto turned back to her and Sasuke. “Where else? I’m going to see Sensei, regardless of what Iruka-sensei might think or command. Kakashi is our team leader; remember when he helped us become Genins by telling us the true meaning of the task? We wouldn’t be here without that guy. We’ve been through a lot, from saving him from Zabuza to so much as going to eat Ramen together. It’s not so hard just to go and pay him a visit is it?” hesitantly he turned his back on them and continued to head towards Kakashi’s home. Sakura bounded after him.
”Wait! It’s dangerous! I’m coming with you!”

Daddy K.

December 2, 2005 by Angel Tear
Filed under: Uncategorized, Poetry

In dedication to Mr Kennedy. in maths people started calling him ‘dad’
Then Daddy K… hence the real song by boney m “daddy cool”

Daddy K.

He’s crazy like a fool
What about it Daddy K

He’s crazy like a fool
What about it Daddy K
Let’s get crazy like a fool
What about it Daddy K?

Daddy, daddy M
Daddy, daddy A
Daddy, daddy T
Daddy, daddy H

We’re crazy like a fool
What about it daddy K
I’m crazy like a fool
What about it daddy K

Daddy, daddy M
Daddy, daddy A
Daddy, daddy T
Daddy, daddy H

(Radius) he’s crazy about his compass
Oh he believes in the indices
he loves his math

he’s crazy like a fool
What about it daddy K
I’m crazy like a fool
What about it daddy K

Daddy, daddy M
Daddy, daddy A
Daddy, daddy T
Daddy, daddy H

what am i ( an idea of someone elses)

by .willow.
Filed under: Poetry

skimming the water
up we fly
never resting
never stopping
untill we reach our goal

can u guess ?
give up
nomlas der ( its backword)